Thursday, January 1, 2026

New Year's Day 2026 / The First Steps

 


Song:  Moon-Star
(I had originally bought this album in the early 1980's while at university...
and this song has remained my favorite since.)

Original Composer:  Kitaro

Rendition:  Royal Symphonic Orchestra


As I have said before...
this is my favorite rendition of my favorite song...
of all time.

It is a beautiful demonstration of a well lived life...
and it is this song which my subconscious plays during serene moments...
and in a manner which is not only heard and felt...
but with a spatial separation and with infrasonic frequencies not presented in real life
(only infrasonic frequencies are felt to the bone and reverberate within).

As the composition unfolds...
it is the story of the beginning of life.

As the organ, strings, and percussion build towards a crescendo culminating
in the cymbal crash which is then accented by the chord strikes of the grand piano...
it is the building of the great anticipation of childhood...
where our eyes are filled with the wonders of the world as sensations are newly experienced...
and a carefree outlook fills our hearts with the dreams of a future unknown...
and yet...
with a direction of travel determined.

As the song transitions to a lonely sounding oboe 
and the accompanying plucking of a violin's strings...
it is the steady beat of a child maturing.

It is when the child must experience the discipline of learning in school...
still not understanding much about himself or about life.

As he is thrown into the new social experience of having to be around others...
albeit in the controlled structure of a school...
he still feels alone in life even though he is surrounded by others.

As the southing pull of the strings then accompany the plucking of the strings...
the child learns that isolation comforts him as he begins his travels to his inner world...
his place where he first discovers himself.

As the percussion fades in and the lone violin solos...
this is when the child learns to dream of his future...
as he realizes that it is he...
and only he...
who controls his destiny.

And for years...
he keeps his dream alive as he continues to mature.

He realizes that he must play the long game in life...
that it will be a marathon...
and so...
that he must pace himself for the long haul...
or face an early burnout.

The song progresses...
as does his life.

He gets a stable job so he will have a promising future...
and so...
the song plays on.

And just as the song new to the ears has a yet to be determined outcome...
so it is with his future...
however...
as all beautiful songs and sonatas have a known and reliable structure...
even though the sonata had never before been heard...
one can count on a building crescendo leading to a beautiful ending...
as in all great songs...
and so as in all lives lived well.

As the piano's chord strikes once again rejoin the song...
as the violins increase in volume...
and the percussion accent the mood...
it portrays the many carrots in midlife coming to fruition...
but not yet revealing the most delicious portion of the sonata...
the steady buildup towards its magnificent resolution.

As the song once again transitions to the building and repeating 
crescendos and decrescendos and building in intensity...
it tells the story of the previously planted fruits of life having had come into fruition...
and so...
are savored as they are devoured.

With the final portion of the song being repeated in waves of ecstatic expression...
as all the instruments come together in delicious harmony...
and in support of one another...
just as it is so with everything in life coming together in the well prepared 
and preplanned life in retirement...
with plenty of time left in the song to be fully experienced and enjoyed.

As the song expands and contracts until the lone organ chord leads to the final
playing of the strings as the song gently returns you to Earth...
just as one prepares for a beautiful ending having had fully experienced a soul stirring sonata...
so it is so as a person is gently returned to his inner world as he prepares for death...
filled with an inner serenity as he flies through the luminescent clouds of his sunset...
on his final flight of freedom.

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If you think me as being a tad dramatic...
I assure you...
living life well is far more dramatic.

Life can be a beautiful sonata...
or have the deep ugliness of incoherent melodies and absent harmonies...
all of which are transparently as sonically masturbatory in nature
as is the nature of a monkey on a tree branch seeking out immediate gratification
over that of an artful buildup of anticipation...
 followed then by its masterful release
(deferred gratification).

Moon-star is the song of life...
from birth to death
(subjectively...I admit).

Through its melodies, harmonies, partial syncopated and driving on beat percussions...
its sweet, lonely and delicious solos, its masterful transitions of intensity...
of its crescendos and decrescendos artfully applied to its absolutely heavenly and serene resolution...
it demonstrates the concept of living life well.

This is also an example of what should play in the orchestra of the mind
during the ecstatic and serene times of a deeply engaging sunrise or sunset...
where you are not merely hearing music...
but feeling it...
and of allowing it to transport you to your inner world...
where your dreams of the future rule and guide you towards the necessary action...
to goad you to keep on the path to its fruition...
while simultaneously allowing you to truly live in the moment.

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Now...
once again...
it is the dream which provides the impetus and the never ending drive
towards the summit of the mountain before you...
besides providing the schematic...
the map for the necessary route of travel.

Nothing in life gets done without motivation...
and there is no more efficient and effective form of motivation 
as that which is self induced...
as it is ever present.

It is as simple as having your ultimate goal ever present in your mind...
and of knowing that there is but one shot in life that not only
lays out the necessary path in life to achieve that goal...
 but gives you the sense of urgency to actually walk that path...
without which it forever remains but a pipe dream...
the realm and refuge of the lazy.

This is important to understand...
there is a clearcut defining line between merely what you think and what you do.

What lies in the realm of the mind...
while being of extreme importance...
 is merely to motivate you...
and to lay out the necessary path to tread in order to achieve positive results in life.

It ALL comes to naught without the positive action...
carried out to fruition...
that will result in the positive outcome.

This is where most people who fail...
fail...
for it is in the effort and discipline necessary to walk the path to achieving that dream...
that the dragon of laziness so often wins.

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The very first and most important concept to learn in life
is that of deferred gratification vs that of immediate gratification.

I was very fortunate in life as it was one of the first concepts I had learned...
although not directly...
 and certainly not by knowing the actual terms
(I was a very young child in elementary school).

In the 60s...
it was a common theme throughout culture.

Not only throughout TV...
through the various sports I had been involved with...
and in movies
(warriors and knights of Old England, the Samurai of Japan, 
and the Old West Cowboys of America)...
but through my readings...
from fairy tales to more advanced books in my father's library.
I used to love to read the many books in my father's library...
from the many volumes of the encyclopedia...
to history and the sciences (both the soft and hard sciences).

I would spend many hours at a time as a young child in my father's library...
mostly reading about history, psychology, and philosophy...
as well as the various hard sciences.

I loved reading...
and still do.

But...
I especially loved Fairy Tales
(American version and Japanese fairy tales)...
for I saw it as fundamental concepts in life...
of true gems of knowledge given in a highly digestible and compact form.

Now...
it is this concept of Deferred Gratification...
without which...
your dreams will never come to fruition...
and will most likely...
never even emerge in the first place.

With a love of Immediate Gratification...
one constantly prioritizes immediate comfort over any long term goals.

The natural consequence of this is laziness...
or of a constant search for distractions in life...
including various and mind warping drugs or alcohol...
 whether in unnecessary prescription or illicit forms of excuses in a bottle.

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Now...
having had already firmly established the concept of deferred gratification
in my mind (without knowing of the official terms used)...
the ground work of knowing that lofty dreams could be reached...
my positive outlook on life was established.

From that point...
even as a very young child...
my inner world emerged where I began to dream of greater things...
and so...
by dreaming of...
and living for the future...
I realized that I was but a young ignorant child...
but that by learning from the truly learned...
I would eventually mature enough to begin walking the path to my dreams
(and so...I was generally immune to peer pressure...
as I knew that they were just as ignorant as was I...
although I wouldn't really even start to mature until I went into the Army at 17 years of age).

And so...
it was solitude I had sought out.

And this was key.

Those of my generation (I was born at the tail end of the 50s)...
were actually very fortunate...
as we had very few distractions in life.

It was either play outside...
or play inside...
and as I was the only male child in my family...
I just ventured out alone.

I actually loved solitude...
as I often would spend all day exploring the rural area 
surrounding our suburban housing area.
(we were an isolated community surrounded by orchards, 
a long river with high banks...
large open fields of rapeseed plants...
and with not so distant mountains to view on the horizon).

Even then...
I loved sunrises and sunsets.

It was during my all day walks along the riverbank of the nearby river
that I had found so much peace as I dreamed of the future.

I simply loved my inner world more so than the social outer world.

And so...
it was in solitude that I had found out more about myself...
and about the nature and of the great importance and meaning of life...
as well as the true nature of death (the impermanence and fragility of life)...
(as I have never been religious...I had taken a more philosophical approach).

But...
I say this not to make you think I was this super mature young child...
I was still afraid of the boogyman  :)


The key point I wish to stress is that it is in solitude where dreams are formed...
but as guided and fomented through learning from the learned
(positive examples of leaders of true thought throughout history).

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As paraphrased from Socrates:

Know yourself...
and you shall know the world.


I would add:

Master yourself...
and you shall master your world.


And above all...
dare to dream.


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Yesterday (New Year's Eve)...
I just made myself some Salmon Ochazuke to eat and I then went to bed before midnight...
after looking at the computer up in the loft.


I am still making myself quick and easy meals...
as I am still fatigued.








After reviewing some of my favorite websites on my computer up in the loft...
I then went to bed.


New Year's Day


Earlier in the week...
I had earlier received a Japanese care package.

New Year's Day in Japan is typically proceeded by a thorough cleaning of the house...
and then preparing meals on the eve of New Year's Day so nothing will have to be cooked
on New Year's Day.

In my acknowledgement of that custom...
I have been eating nothing but the contents of the care package I had received...
however, as I am still weak from my illness...
I omitted the deep cleaning portion of the house :)









I hadn't had so many of these delicious treats for such a long time.

I took up many of the treats to the loft so I could enjoy them as I typed up this article.









All of these were so delectable...
that as soon as I finished one bag...
I quickly moved on to the next one.

But...
as I am now finished with this article...
I will just go back to lie down in my bed until
I get hungry once again.

Later this evening...
I will make curry rice...
and I will then turn on the fireplace to enjoy the included chocolates...
and some peppermint tea in my recliner.

In the meantime...
I have been binge watching the best of this radio show on YouTube...
Brooke and Jubal Second Date Update...
and so...
I will just binge watch more of their show until evening arrives.

Not only are the hosts brilliantly funny and incredibly witty...
but the guests are so interesting in their views and reactions.

It is an in-depth look into basic human nature...
as some of what is said is just mind blowing...
as I cannot understand why some people think and react in the manner they do.














Thursday, December 25, 2025

A Bandi Christmas Morning

 


Song:  That's The Way Of The World

Group:  Earth, Wind, and Fire




I had gotten up before sunrise...
began brewing some peppermint tea...
and began warming up some of the KFC chicken I had bought yesterday.

I bought a whole bucket to last me all day today.

I stay off the roads on the eve's of, and all during holidays...
as drunk drivers are at their peak during these times.




My quick, easy, and delicious Christmas morning breakfast
(...and as always...I shared some with Bandi).


I turned on the fireplace...
and sipped my peppermint tea in my recliner as I watched the sunrise...
while being warmed by the fire.







Bandi is just so cute.
It is her personality that makes her so adorable.
She is funny and affectionate.











Bandi telling me she wants to go to her forest area.


She then perks up when I say...Ok...let's go!



Bandi took her time using the bathroom 
as I just looked at the fading colors of the sunrise.


I then turned off the fireplace...
took my peppermint tea up to the loft...
and began typing up this article.


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The following is going to be a bit wordy.

As I currently live alone (other than with Bandi)...
my only real contact with the outside world is through some pen pals...
through my blog...
and through my creative passions.

It is not that I am always wordy...
so much...
anymore  :)

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As I am now 66 years old...
being up here...
isolated from the craziness of the world...
I feel freedom...
not only from negative people...
but freedom from my past.

I have nothing but a beautiful future in which to look forwards.

I remember the included song from when I was in high school.

I used to love listening to it on the radio as I drove through 
the Santa Cruz Mountains on my way to the ocean just on the other side.

I have always loved forested mountains...
and now...
I am living at 9,650 ft in forested mountains.

It had always been my dream to live in such a place.

And to now be able to once again look into a future where 
my dream home is now part of my present...
a home base of operations from where I may then once again...
travel to new lands...
where a whole new set of adventures lay before me...
of new cultures and cuisines to discover and to savor...
of more stories to write...
of more music to compose and to play...
of living a life so rich with wonder and playfulness...
 is to have made all the earlier sacrifices worth it.

Starting next Autumn...
most everything here at home will have been protected...
planted...and stabilized.

It will mark the beginning of a new age of freedom in life for me.

It will become more of a full time bucket list fulfillment phase...
where beyond basic and infrequent home maintenance...
it will become a time of freedom to explore distant lands...
and of much more time to devote to my personal passions in life...
only because of prior planning in life which had led up to this.

For me...
time is the most valuable asset in life.

To waste it is to commit one of the greatest of personal sins.

Living life with freedom and serenity...
is only the way of the world...
if you set it up to live properly.

In order to set up our outer world how we would like it...
we must first set up our inner world properly.

I am sorry for harping on this same subject...
but it is so important.

To realize that our time is limited...
that ultimately...
death is certain...
sets our timeline in life upon which we all must operate.

You would not set upon an open ocean journey without knowing the destination. 
Not only so you could properly provision your ship for the journey...
but for the hope for adventure...the anticipation of the destination...
the enjoying of the winds in your hair and upon your face as you 
gaze upon glorious sunrises and sunsets.

Your dreams for the future are the trade winds of life...
the constant filling of your sails which allow for a speedy and fulfilling transit
upon glassy seas.

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I have felt embarrassment, shame, fear, regret...
and I have grown...
not merely from the fact that I have experienced them...
but because I had conquered them.

And NO...
not by merely forgetting them...
or by filling my life with meaningless distractions...
but through the adaptation of my behavior
to ensure those same categories of negative behaviors 
were never repeated or experienced to debilitating levels.

It is called psychological death.

It is a necessary part of living a well lived life.

In order to achieve this...
it is necessary to engage in retroactive introspection.

You must be honest with yourself...
and be able to look at past situations objectively...
to run and rerun the scenarios in your head from different angles...
and perspectives...
and yes...
to assign actual personal guilt for your part in the situation
(Not all scenarios are your fault.  This is an important distinction)...
by either having played a part in it...
or by having had allowed others to manipulate you into it.

However...
it is the objective ground from which you may then take positive action...
to either correct your negative behavior...
and/or to distance yourself from the manipulators / parasites...
through whom had set up the scenarios in the first place.

Either way...
it only through positive action that any positive result may occur.

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Now...
it is not only through a bonehead approach to living life that I have gained wisdom
(learning through mistakes).

I...
as I suppose most people do...
also learn through others' positive and negative experiences
through close observation...
establishing cause and effect from their behaviors...
either directly or indirectly...
which are tied to the results...
either of which are positive or negative.

I...
as most people...
have also experienced and accomplished things in life...
however...
just by virtue of my age and through my varied experiences...
I have accumulated a bit more than the average person.

But...
even more so...
I am a keen observer of people and situations
(not that I cannot be fooled.  I have been...and I will be in the future...
but not nearly so easily for each of the following times).

I was very shy...
not because I was timid...
but because I was cautious...
because I continually saw a disparity among words...
intonations, body language and facial expressions...
to following actions, inactions, and reactions...
in the short term, as well as in the long

(it is the facet of the dog in all of us).



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Okay...
I had only said the above to set the stage for the premise of my having 
enough wisdom to impart upon others.

But...
before I go on...
as I have said before...
many people simply won't listen to what is said...
will not attempt to verify the message...
to reason it out on its own merits...
but will attempt to divine the intent of the messenger instead
(of course...if I am lying about the message...
wouldn't it make sense that I would also deceive about my intent?).

Key:
look for internal inconsistencies...
or to that of reality
(common sense).

But...
as it is not difficult to explain...
here I go...
once again.


Altruism?


NO


There simply is no such a thing.

All sentient organisms have the inner desire for self...
while all living organisms react to the following.

We all are driven by two basic drives:

Pursuit of pleasure

Aversion to pain

They may take on differing manifestations...
to magnify or to lessen from past, present...or as projected in the future...
but all condense to these two.

So...
this means that all actions are inherently selfish?

Yes...
and no.

Yes...
subjectively...
we are all subject to these two drives.

No (seemingly)...
if it is measured objectively through our interactions with the world.

We do things for love or duty that sometimes demand sacrifice
of our own well being...
sometimes at the sacrifice of our very lives.

Whether the drive is that of internal pleasurable feelings...
or to avoid guilt...
it is all subject to the two drives.

(Even that of one who had been conditioned to certain stimuli
to act reflexively under the face of death...
the drive is merely manifested from the beginning...
and so the resulting reflexive action was the drive manifesting 
in a previously conditioned response...
and in that moment...
no thought took place...
but the basis for that action was the preset mindset as a result of the two drives).

So...
am I selfish for doling out advice?

Strictly speaking...
yes.

Subjectively...
yes.

Simply...
it makes me feel good

(it automatically doubles pleasure in life...
that of giving as well as that of receiving)...

and it keeps me from feeling guilty by not having attempted to help others
(however...all guilt dissolves should the person not listen).


Objectively...
 it helps others take positive steps to improve their lives.

I feel good...
others' lives improve, so they feel good...
and all with no downside to anyone.

A Win-Win scenario.

Why?

Because that is what good men do.

We are problem solvers by nature...
and we love to help others
(perfect engineering of anything...
especially of win-win scenarios, are deeply pleasurable to good men).

We are naturally happy in life...
and we like to see others happy in life as well.

But why?

Because of empathy
(because of the mirror neurons in our brains...
we can feel what others are experiencing).

By even imagining the smile, laughter, or deep happiness of loved ones
in the movies of our minds...
or even of strangers...and even as projected far into the future...
because of actions taken by us...
makes us happy in the here and now.

So...
yes...
it all comes full circle to the inherent selfish drives we all have.

So...
I had presented the premise...
I had offered supporting rational discourse...
and I had come to a correct conclusion derived from the above rational argument.

(In the future...I am just going to copy and paste the above...
as it was more involved than I had initially realized  :)

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Now...
as a possible counter to anyone doubting my intent
(rationally...you can't)...

If someone benevolently gifted you with $1,000,000...
would you then refuse because you thought he just wanted to feel superior to you?...
or because he wanted others to think highly of him?...
or just because it makes him happy doing it?

Never get caught in the trap of divining intent purely through subjectivity.

You already know people are inherently selfish...
all of us.

What matters is the objective evidence before you.

Look at it objectively...
is the situation a win-win scenario?

And...
yes...
when I feel a little lonely...
I write in my blog to make me feel better...
to feel a little more connected with the hearts and minds of others.

I will write to a pen pal...
I will engage with my personal passions...
with the thought of giving happiness to someone...
somewhere...
either now or in the future...
to ultimately make me happy in the here and now.

So what?

Not because I am pure...
not because of arrogance so I may feel as if I were superior...
but merely because it makes me happy to do so.

I am engaging in the pursuit of pleasure.

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Sorry...
I had only said the above to set the stage...
to open up the hearts and minds of anyone reading my blog...
as I have many readers from around the world
(the map doesn't accurately measure my readership...
only my blog's internal metrics fully show the various countries 
which engage with my blogs).

And...
sorry once again to my regular readers...
but as I have many new readers...
and as I have given much of the same advice in my other blogs
that they have not seen...
and as the new year is upon us...
what I have to say will be repetitious.

Also...
I am well aware that there are many who live in countries 
where opportunities do not exist to the extent of what is afforded us in the US.

But...
 much of what I say applies to the basics of thought and action
almost anyone can apply to their own lives almost anywhere they are.

But...
I will not bore you through this one article...
I intend to do it over many articles  :)

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As this year is coming to a close...
so must your past.

Do I mean to forgive and to forget your past?

Yes...
and no.

What I mean is to let go of any negative effects anything from the past
may have a hold upon you...
any misgivings...
any injustices you may have suffered...
either real or imagined.

Our real enemy in life is our own lassitude...
our own laziness...
and a twisted sense for vengeance upon our enemies in life.

Either will destroy your future if you let them.

The first will lead you towards stagnation in life...
the second will destroy your future.

So...
what will cure these if you are to NOT forgive and forget the past?

There are two main methods...
one is what you do...
and the other is what you do not do.

Aversion to pain...
one of our great teachers in life.

And...
the alleviation of it...
one of the great pleasures in life.

Not only do you not directly forget the experience...
you use it for fuel to provide the drive necessary to improve your situation 
and life from that point forwards.

It also provides you with a schematic of the situation...
so you may identify the types of people of whom you need to avoid in the future.

It is a valuable lesson learned...
and so...
provides wisdom.

As your life improves...
leaving behind the saboteurs whose only focus was on taking down others
instead of improving their own lives...
leaves them behind in your dust...
which is a most pleasurable vengeance without destroying your own life...
and it lasts a lifetime.

But...
the drive for a better life should be so large...
so real...
that all other things in life should pale by comparison.

That dream is your mountain to summit.

It will be a long hike...
but with each step forwards...
you gain energy.

There will be many potholes in the future
(enemies...obstacles).

Do you not reach the summit before sunset because
you wish to fill in all of the potholes...
or do you simply sidestep them to keep on your path
in a timely manner so you may?

By keeping your dream alive...
and by sublimating your anger to provide yourself fuel for the future...
you are providing yourself with the most efficient and effective
method of achieving your dreams.

Remember the two basic drives in all beings:

The pursuit of pleasure

The aversion to pain

Through this method...
you stimulate both.

One...
the big dream...
pulls you ever forth.

Two...
the aversion to pain makes you avoid future pot holes...
and fuels yourself for the long hike as well.

However...
you will find that although anger burns very hot...
it has a very limited amount of fuel.

Even though you will try to stimulate the hate for more fuel...
it will eventually run out.

And so...
although you will always remember the patterns used by evil people...
your hatred of certain circumstances soon burns out.

This is how someone truly forgets
(walking through the fires of hell to reach heaven on the other side).

This applies to grief as well as to anger.

By trying to forget something...
you have to remember what you are trying to forget...
and so the fire never becomes a blaze...
and even worse...
it forever remains a smoldering ember.

By burning it out...
it never reemerges.

The mind then relegates it to insignificance...
and it is soon overwritten by things of greater significance.

All that is left is being driven by your dream...
where you are pulled forwards by hope.

But...
more on that for the beginning of the New Year.

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One last point...

Who am I to give such advice?

Am I enormously wealthy?

NO

Although I am comfortably retired...
I cannot be compared to truly wealthy people.


Am I especially talented...in anything?

NO...especially no.

I am quite average as a man.

I am better at some things...
and not so good at others.

Well...
WHY IN HELL DO YOU THINK WHAT YOU SAY HAS ANY VALUE?

It is precisely because I am a common man 
that what I speak of is of uncommon value.

If I can reach my dreams...
almost anyone can.

Although I am not particularly wealthy (by US standards)...
or especially smart or talented...
I am extremely happy in life...
not only in the present...
but my future is set up to always improve
(an extremely important concept...
front loading effort and sacrifice in life...
but more on that later).

I am always happy...
and I get even more happy with the just the simplest of life's pleasures...
the serenity of the forests and the mountains...
sunrises and sunsets...
the wind upon my face...
delicious food...
exercise...
a simple country drive...
and the funny and affectionate antics of my dog...Bandi.

I deeply appreciate what I have...
and I look forward to all that life has in store for the future.

So long as I could always be assured I could have all the basics of life...
I could live very happily in a cave...
so long as I could live high up in the mountains...
with views of the sunrise and sunset...
and with me just reading...
writing...
and engaging in music.

I most value freedom in life...
and the time I have left.

A deeply fulfilling life is what we all wish for...
and it is within reach of us all...
if you but keep the dream alive...
and never stop walking towards the summit of your mountain.







New Year's Day 2026 / The First Steps

  Song:  Moon-Star (I had originally bought this album in the early 1980's while at university... and this song has remained my favorite...