The Tiger's Den - True Solitude

 

Song:  Alone Again

Artist:  Gilbert O'Sullivan

Shortly after publishing the previous article...

I made something to eat...

relaxed in bed for a bit...

and I then got busy moving the computer and desk...

as well as all of my instruments...

 to set everything up in my bedroom.

As you can see...

the Keyboard, Bass Flute, and two of my Guitars fit in the corner.

As I am using the classical and the 12 string guitars right now...

I just placed them within reach of me while sitting at the computer.

My electric guitar...

I put between my headboard and the door.

My six string bass guitar...

I had placed between the closet...

and the door.

Everything fit well.

There is plenty of room to walk about...

for Bandi...

as well as for me.

I hung my headphones on the keyboard stand.

There is still room for Bandi to pass to the left of the keyboard...

as she sometimes likes to look out the other window by the bed.

She is cognizant of the new items in my room...

and she is careful to avoid bumping into them.

Bandi has plenty of room to investigate outside through the side windows...

so...

she is quite happy about that.

I could also put the microphone next to the music stand.

There is still plenty of room to enter my closet.

This is how the Tiger's Den will look most of the time...

especially once I install blackout blinds.

My keyboard is also backlit in red lighting.

In case I need more light...

there are plenty of installed lights in my room.

At most...

I will turn on the alcove light...

but I can't foresee ever needing it.

Just the red lights are more than enough.

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I really love to shut out the world when I want to feel creative.

I want to feel as if I were the only one in the world...

where no one exists to bother me...

especially during the creative process.

I feel so much more myself in The Tiger's Den...

for this is where I feel the most comfortable.

Most of the time...

I love being alone.

It is people in the real world that make me feel tired...

bothered...

and even lonely in their presence...

for so many are so insincere...

and play transparently stupid manipulative games...

as if they were back on the elementary school yard.

It is not that I do not understand what people are doing...

I just mostly do not understand why they would do those things.

Weirdly...

I don't feel lonely when I am alone...

and I am deeply and truly happy in solitude...

as if I were the only one on an interstellar mission far out in space.

It is in solitude 

that I can see people in the movie of my mind with such clarity...

that I become them...

for I could perceive what they are thinking and feeling...

as projected in a possible future...

and their personalities never disappoint...

for they are always interesting...

intelligent...

funny...

deeply passionate...

and highly expressive

(They become characters of future books).

So many people just don't realize the depth and wonder of our own inner worlds.

It is why I love to write.

I know that we have but one life to live...

but in experiencing life through the hearts and minds of so many others...

through the characters written about...

we can...

in essence...

live a thousand lives in the space of one.

And it is also true for creating music.

For in touching our own creative soul...

we may touch others souls...

and in realizing that others may enjoy our work...

we feel a connection with others...

even if we don't know about them in real life.

Just knowing that sometime in the future...

others own inner paths may be pointed to through our creations...

brings about our own happiness...

and so...

loneliness is erased...

and is replaced by a deep inner satisfaction.

This is the function of...

The Tiger's Den...

to allow the creative process free reign.

It is in my den...

that the movies and the orchestras of the mind meld...

 and are most deeply felt

(other than during sunsets and sunrises...

or during night country drives).

And so...

it is one of my near projects to install blackout blinds...

the type in rails which when drawn down...

completely blocks all light...

except for when I wish to allow a gentle cross breeze in my room by opening them.

Some of my happiest times...

happen in...

The Tiger's Den.

Just sitting in familiar and such welcoming surroundings...

I am already feeling more creative.

Alone Again...

and nowhere else do I feel so fulfilled...

or so deeply happy.